Saying, "I Love You"

Saying, “I love you” to your spouse or significant other plays a vital role in your communication of your feelings towards the other person. This is why most people get so nervous the first time they say, “I love you” to someone they are in a relationship with. By saying those words you are making yourself vulnerable to rejection and hurt while at the same time making a commitment, and that can be a scary situation. I remember the first time Curtis said he loved me. It was just weeks into our relationship. He had just kissed me sweetly and then he looked me square in the eyes and said, “Becky, I love you.” Those words took me by surprise since I was aware of Curtis’s reputation as someone who would not even kiss a girl for months if he did not feel 100% right. And here we were, just a few weeks into our relationship and he was saying those words that every girl loves to hear. So what do I do? Well I got really nervous. And when Becky gets nervous she laughs. That’s right I laughed at poor Curtis. I wish I had been able to compose myself enough to tell him my feelings were mutual, but instead I LAUGHED at him. Curtis is not much of a verbal communicator when it comes to love to begin with, and I probably made it worse. Despite my unintentional rude reaction, he continued to love me even more and our relationship obviously progressed.

In a beginning of a relationship those words really mean a lot because they are fresh and new, packed with a lot of new relationship emotions and hormones. As you settle down with your loved one, often times these words lose some their meaning and become habit more than a sincere thought. For example, what do you say when you are leaving your spouse for the day? What do you say when you hang up the phone having just spoken to your spouse? Those are two examples of saying those words out of pure habit. Does that make them meaningless? Heavens no. But tell me this. When you catch your spouse staring at you with admiration at some random time, and he or she smiles tenderly and says, “Sweetheart, I love you.” How does that make your feel? Those are some of my most prized moments between my spouse and I. I crave those moments because I can truly feel the love my spouse has for me without it being tainted by habit.

So my thought of the month today is keep things fresh in your relationship and tell your sweetheart that you love them randomly as you feel it throughout your day. Text them, call them, or say it to their face. I believe it makes a difference.

Boys will be Boys

After a lot of anticipation waiting for someone to tell us if our baby is a girl or a boy, we found out yesterday that it will indeed be a boy. I was a bit disappointed at first. I really wanted another girl to dress up and well... be girly with. But today I realized something as I was taking my two boys Ashton, and Jace to the doctor... and that is, I absolutely adore my boys! They are great. They are a lot of fun to be around most of the time, and they are fairly simple with little drama for the most part. Curtis and I are however very thankful that we have our little tiny Sage who can be overly dramatic sometimes but is the life of the party wherever she goes. We hope as the oldest in the family, Sage will have a positive and calming affect on the over abundance of testosterone that will inhabit the walls of our home. Speaking of Sage, she was a bit disappointed too... she really wanted a baby sister. But she, like her parents, seems to have moved past the disappointment to the excitement of meeting another bouncing boy.

So some of you are asking if this will still be our last child? Yes, yes it will be. We believe that four is a good number for our family. Now for finding another boy name.... Curtis and I could only come up with one meager name that we both agreed upon last time, so we have depleted our bank of names. Always a bowl full of fun those names! Suggestions are welcome. Curtis only asks that I steer clear of those tree hugging names I tend to lean towards lol.

1 girl 3 boys. These will be mine and Curtis's kids. We are excited to do our best in raising them!

"He came back to life mom!"

Easter Morning came faster than both Curtis and I wanted it to come. The night before we were both up late helping the kids color eggs and getting ready for Easter. To add to things, Jace had been up the night before crying for one reason or another around 4am. We both had a hard time getting back to sleep. So when the alarm went off at 7:45 we both dragged our feet getting out of bed. We did however make it to church. Barely...

The kids were given knew church clothes. Sage got a dress that suited her beautifully, and we gave Ashton a brand new blue colored shirt and yellow tie. Jace got nothing... but I don't think he cared :).

I decided this year not to focus so much on the Easter Bunny. In fact I actually told the kids that I, Mom, was responsible for all the candy, giving the Easter Bunny absolutely no credit. Then I asked the kids if they knew what Easter was really about. Sage was quick to tell me that it was about Jesus Christ and his resurrection. Ashton needed a bit more explanation. So I reminded him that Jesus died for all mankind. Then I asked him if he knew what happened after he died. He shouted out with excitement, "He came back to life mom!" I loved how excited he was... I always tend to remember his resurrection with reverence... but why not be excited. It is an exciting thing if you think about it! Because of what He did, we are able to return to Heavenly Father one day again. That is pretty exciting!

After our Church services, we headed over to my parents house in Orem. We had a great meal and enjoyed each others company. Later that day my brother Andy came over to let us know he was engaged to Mary Beth! Yay for both of them. And then we hid candy and eggs for all the kids and let them have a little Easter egg hunt.

Life really is good for our family. We truly have been blessed with everything that we need... And I an truly grateful for Jesus Christ the son of God. Without him I think my life would feel empty even with all my earthly possessions and blessings. He gives me a purpose that is beyond the superficial meaning of our short life here on this Earth. Happy Easter everyone.

Ashton, Tallie, and Sage

Ashton, Sage, Tallie, and Jace

More of the kids

While we were hiding the eggs Jace fell helplessly asleep in Uncle Bon's arms. So this his how he spent his first Easter Egg hunt. Later my mom put candy in both of his hands as he slept. It was cute.